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From My Deep of Heart
Dec. 23rd, 2017 07:59 pmWow...you are such a great talker, you know.
I'm sorry if I'm rude. But after all, you only don't want to be the bad guy here. All this time, when you say nothing for more than a year, I often thought that I want to talk bluntly to you so I can throw away the weight in my heart, but I couldn't because after I think clearly, what will I get after that? Will I happy? Will I feel like a winner? No, that will worsen things between us and our family, and I don't want it because I still think you as my friend. Also this is not a race, so no one win or lose. That's why I said I'll like to remain as a friend with you on our last chat and I don't want to recalling anything more.
But I never think that you'll talk to me like this. Honestly, I feel betrayed this way. Not because you get married, but because what you did is so selfish. Everything you just said is like an excuse to easy yourself, to cast away any hard feeling of yours. If you want to make a closure, you must did it last year, LAST YEAR. You missed your chance.
I can see and sense that you'll marry someone else, but it will be better if you just let it go. You have no obligation to tell me, because I think everything already over. I like it better if you say nothing cause I'll know it as time goes by. I know you did it not to hurt me, but still I'm sorry I can't help myself to not resent you now. I'm sorry if my words really really rude. I know you have no bad intention, I'm sorry. But thanks to you for bring me a chance for saying all of this. I'm grateful and relieved. And sincerely pray for your happiness. I wish you meet someone who can make you be a better person, and otherwise. Once again, thank you.
I'm sorry if I'm rude. But after all, you only don't want to be the bad guy here. All this time, when you say nothing for more than a year, I often thought that I want to talk bluntly to you so I can throw away the weight in my heart, but I couldn't because after I think clearly, what will I get after that? Will I happy? Will I feel like a winner? No, that will worsen things between us and our family, and I don't want it because I still think you as my friend. Also this is not a race, so no one win or lose. That's why I said I'll like to remain as a friend with you on our last chat and I don't want to recalling anything more.
But I never think that you'll talk to me like this. Honestly, I feel betrayed this way. Not because you get married, but because what you did is so selfish. Everything you just said is like an excuse to easy yourself, to cast away any hard feeling of yours. If you want to make a closure, you must did it last year, LAST YEAR. You missed your chance.
I can see and sense that you'll marry someone else, but it will be better if you just let it go. You have no obligation to tell me, because I think everything already over. I like it better if you say nothing cause I'll know it as time goes by. I know you did it not to hurt me, but still I'm sorry I can't help myself to not resent you now. I'm sorry if my words really really rude. I know you have no bad intention, I'm sorry. But thanks to you for bring me a chance for saying all of this. I'm grateful and relieved. And sincerely pray for your happiness. I wish you meet someone who can make you be a better person, and otherwise. Once again, thank you.
